Yes i'm the only daughter, my parents took in 4 other children after my grandparents died. There were two girls and two boys, im really close to one of them but she lives two hours away. I moved away from our hometown after i graduated and ended back here in our home town after 10 yrs. We live next door so id visit several times a day. My father built me a salon/spa next door so i used to pamper her with hair,nails,pedicures. of course she had me very spoiled and full of love for her kids. I miss all the little things . She used to help me with my hair, which i loved.

@mj0123, You have some beautiful memories to treasure forever. Thank you for sharing. I, too, miss the 'girl' times with mom. After she died, I found some comfort in talking with, crying with, and sharing memories with my sister-in-law over the phone. We were long distance, but she also had become like a daughter to mom and a sister to me after she married my older brother. We remain very close today. Is there someone who was close to your mom; someone who knew her and loved her, that you could talk with and cry with as you face each new day? Is there someone who you can do some 'girl' things with. Like hair or nails? Consider treating yourself to a girls day out. Pamper yourself and do it in honor of your mom. Keep in your mind and heart how happy your mom would be for you.
These are some of the sort of things that helped me-and still do.
I'm happy that you have joined this discussion. You have refreshed in me some of the special memories of times that mom and I shared. Thank-you.
Rosemary