I had been looking at this sight and debating whether to post my feelings, here it goes. I lost my mother my everything 7 months ago. It has been the most devastating loss that has ever happened to me and my family. Everything just happened so fast, she was put on oxygen in January and was scheduled to see a lung specialist not til March. I knew something wasnt right , February 7th she wasnt feeling good with her oxygen levels dropping so we took her to the ER. They took xray,ct scans,blood work and just sent her home. Doctors weren't to conserned said she had some fibrosis to keep her on oxygen. As weeks passed by she gradually was getting worse, so February 25 we took her back to the same hospital decided to keep her for testing of course no answers til i requested a meeting with all the specialist that had seen her. Again because it was a weekend no answers til Monday morning. when we finally got to talk to them (again) told us she was being sent home and would have to come once a week for blood transfusions because her blood levels were low and she would also have to go for breathing treatments. When they said she was going home her eyes lit up and smiled. Of course we were excited our selves, a couple of days passed by and the floor Dr came in and said theres nothing else we can do, we both looked at each other and my mom asked me what did he mean. DR just walked out with no explanation. I followed him out and i asked him when do we take my mom home. Just looked at me and said your mother has two days to live. I just fell to the floor the Dr turned around like it was just another day. Didnt have no reaction, i know they probably see that dailey but i was alone with no family members around. Just devastating to call my dad and brothers. I didnt even get to ask why, what happened that everything has changed. We all finally got together with hospital councilor and she brought the lung Dr. In to explain that her lungs were hardening. I just cant have closure twice we were told she was fine and coming home. WE were never given options like possible lung transplants, which are very successful. im sure there is a waiting list for transplants but i would of offerd one of mine. She went in there not feeling 100 percent with oxygen on 4 or 5, i noticed once they pumped her with massive morphine and antibiotics she went down extremely and oxygen changed to a huge machine at 40% plus. So much morphine she couldn't even go to the bathroom or sit up. With such devastation we didnt do an autopsy and was cremated. Which is a big regret. I wanted to get her records from the first time we took her and compare but hospital wont release her records. Think we have to go through some process. Anyway this whole nighmare has been devastating and i dont know what to do. Do i try and dig or just leave it alone. I cry dailey and is affecting my life just thinking of all the what ifs and why twice they told us things were fine. I remember her telling me i felt ok til i got here, she did have slight pneumonia back in October 2015 and since then she kinda wasn't her self. MY life has changed forever