Wow, that looks painful. I had a failed implant in my big toe ~2012. After a year of pain I went to a really good surgeon who said he's rarely (never?) seen those implants work, so he removed it and fused my big toe. It is now shorter than the 2nd toe (but not as short as yours), sticks up a little (but not as high as yours), and is numb like yours. It feels weird but doesn't hurt and is definitely way better than prior to surgery. I do recall being surprised that this toe surgery was more difficult to recover from than almost any other surgery I've had, which are quite a few. Probably the best advice I can give is to find the best surgeon you can. I started out by letting a podiatrist do that implant which was a huge mistake on my part.