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Loss & Grief | Last Active: Nov 7 9:03am | Replies (27)Comment receiving replies
Replies to "Hello. Thank you for your kindness. I’ve tried councelling but it hurts too much to talk..."
Hello @dycana,
I am so sorry for what you are experiencing. Grief coupled with regrets make it so much more difficult to find peace in the midst of loss.
I would, however, encourage you to follow the suggestion of @lbrockme and try counseling again. You have said that counseling "hurts too much to talk about." I'd like to suggest something that might make the talking a bit easier.
I would encourage you to get a spiral notebook (or other journal) and write something every day about your own experiences growing up as well as your son's. Often, it is easier to write about rough emotional experiences than it is to talk about them out loud. Once you have a number of pages of thoughts and feelings written down, then go back to the counselor you were seeing and instead of talking about your son and your feelings, just read what you have written.
Consider this option for using counseling as a support. You need to allow yourself as much support as possible right now and professional counseling might be the best for you as you work through these feelings.
Can you give this a try?