I am trying hard to stay positive. I leave for Phoenix Mayo Clinic this coming Weds to begin the preoperative process. My surgery is the 10th. As it draws nearer it's hard not to think about how my life will change preop and any complications I may face. However I thank God for all he has done for me during my 68 years on earth. I have been rescued many times from perilous condititions some imposed by others and some by my own self will run riot. I have a wonderful husband of almost 43 years and we raised 5 beautiful children. They have given me 10 loving grandchildren and spouses that have been gracious to me. I am so blessed. Whatever happens in surgery I trust it will be according to God's will for a reason. I just hope I can handle whatever happens with courage and a small amount of grace at least.