Thank you for your responses and encouragement. It has been recommended I seek out some counseling to work through some of this stuff. I do have avenues open to me at work. I work in our local hospital in the Quality Management department, so I see it all the good, bad and the ugly of everything that occurs within our walls as well as our clinics.

I guess I should add that I had breast cancer in 2014, did all the chemo treatments, had a bilateral mastectomy with reconstruction. Had no signs of anything being wrong until I had the pleural effusion in 2023.

I have an appointment with the new oncologist Wednesday, she is someone my friend sees and trusts. If I am not satisfied, I will continue to look for someone else.