Thank you for the helpful idea of the "to-do" list, which will give me things to do that keep my mind busy.
I have made one decision without waiting, our son and I promised Ellen that we would live close to each other and support each other with our anxiety disorders. I'm selling the house in Bismarck ND to move into an independent living facility 5 blocks from where our son lives in Seattle WA. Our son also lives by himself.
The sun has been shining in Bismarck and I've opened the shades to let it all come into the house and my life.
Thanks again for you support.