@northoftheborder
In addition to your access to psychotherapist do you have access to a specialist who deals with medications for depression, anxiety. Talk to your providers. Most of the time medications are done by a psychiatrist but at Mayo Jacksonville I have a PA who is a specialist in mental health medications.

I take a medication called Escitalopram for anxiety/depression. It has really helped me over the years. I am NOT saying that medication is good, or right, for you but to discuss medications that your providers think can help you deal with depression and/or anxiety. Our mental health is just as important as physical health and both drastically affect each other.

I see other posters like me feel bad you are going through a bad time. We liked corresponding with you and you always had good information and posts. I was not aware you were still on hormone treatments which will REALLY affect your moods. Then dealing with life events can become overwhelming. I lost my sister, both brother-in-laws, and a nephew all within a year of each other. So I hear you!

So northoftheborder, talk to your providers and see if they have or have access to a specialist who specializes in medications for mental health.

I know in the past I tried to address everything within myself as I am an introvert. When I found MCC I was able to speak out freely with others.

Good luck and stay in there. We look forward to future posts from you.