@northofnorthoftheborder
Where you have your medical treatments do you have access to a psychiatric or mental health specialist who can specialze in medications?

I have been a reader of your posts and did see you in a much better mental health stage. We are all human and when things happen like this it is completely normal for us to now being to worry about ourselves and every pain here and there a cancer.

I just had problems of pain in my shoulder and back. I immediately thought can it be cancer after all that proton radiation I had along with numerous CTs and tons of xrays. It was not, just arthritis.

I take a medication for anxiety. I was told I was going to need to take it forever. It does help and I am sure my mental outlook would not be what it is if did not take it. I mentioned this as there are many medications out there to help with depression and anxiety. DO NOT think there is anything negative to address mental health. It is just as important as physical health.

I am not sure in past posts and replies that you mentioned things you like doing. It can help get through times of depression and anxiety. I am 77 and now I see many many friends passing away and yes it makes me reflect back on my own physical help. But my doctors and specialist (including psychiatrist medication specialist) really help me deal with my up and down anxiety and depression.

I do hope you come back to MCC and talk to us. We are here to "HEAR" you. I am an introvert big time but have found MCC a way to speak out and feel comfortable talking about issues I would never do without MCC