I’m sorry to hear of the pain your are feeling due to your neighbors passing. Death makes us all feel so vulnerable because of our own cancer.
It’s definitely OK to have these feelings whether it’s sadness or acceptance. I have one week until my first CT scan from SBRT of the lung to find out the result’s of the treatment. I am nervous, anxious and scared. What I find unsettling is the reaction of family and friends. Like they have already forgotten I have cancer and had radiation and I don’t even have the results yet. At the same time I was diagnosed with lung cancer, I also had a heart angiogram and a brain lesion that is monitored monthly. I know if others can’t see the disease, it must not be important and yet I find these reactions unsettling. I’m trying to get on with life as normal, but finding it difficult.