I know it is easier said than done: but, please, try not to live in fear. My feelings on that : by living in fear, it causes great stress on the body and weakens your body fighting on your behalf. Cancer is very scary... the word from a doctor sends us into shock. All one can do is being vigilant with our body and follow the experts' advice. You have been diligent so you will continue to give yourself the best chances. You are strong and rely on your strength and your loving family! Keep us posted... Hugs and warm thoughts! You rock!