Here is a update to share, first of all thank you all for the love and kind words of support. I really appreciate it.
So, we are no longer treating the cancer, chemo failed due to having an allergic reaction to the new drugs. So now it's come down to pain management and keeping her as comfortable as possible. She grows weaker by the day, I have to actually walk her to the bathroom and bedroom, she can't get in or out of the bed on her own anymore. When she's awake I spend 100% of my time with her doing any and all that I can to enjoy the time and make her happy. She is struggle with constipation from all the pain meds she takes, hoping she can get things moving soon it's been 14 days since last bowl movement, she got a suppository and enema earlier so far, it worked a little but not a lot. Not eating much still. I know the time is running out and I'm more focused on the making her days as best possible, but I do know that one day this fairy tale marriage will end, and she will be with the lord, and I will be all alone with no idea what to do. But until then I will love her and will show that with every action I take. Thank you all for the prayers and kind words, thank you Jesus for the past 44+ years I have had with her I am truly blessed and continue to be, by his stripes we are healed, Amen