Hi there, have you thought of sending cards to your son? That might be an easier way to communicate with your son at this time. I keep a box of cards on my desk and send a card out once in awhile. That makes me have to focus on what I say. I also think it's important to take care of yourself. Keep the rhythms of life going. Our kids are always watching us because we are still Mom. They still need us to be pillars. It helps them feel more stable when they see us being stable.