I hear you. I also am recovering from spinal surgery on July 1st This is my 5th spinal surgery and so I know how difficult the recovery period can be. My surgery 6 years ago was traumatic. I was in agony when I woke up. I did not realize that I was also partially paralyzed in my arm and legs. I was in the hospital for three weeks and ultimately all of that got better so I know that recovery is slow, but it does happen. It was 6 months for me. This time was also traumatic. I was in the hospital for a week just trying to control the pain. It gradually faded but it took a month. I still have incredible weakness in both hands and a hemi paralysis of some fingers. I expect that this will gradually fade away as well. It can't be soon enough for me