Hey, my heart goes out to anyone who has ever experienced depression and someone who has never had it does not have a clue what it's like.
I had TMS treatments 2 yrs ago without any side effects, other than a mild headache that only lasted a short time immediately following a session. Within a week after my final treatment of TMS I noticed a significant improvement in how I felt and the quality of my life. I'm extremely thankful this technology was available during my lifetime. There is a history of depression in my family and I had dealt with clinical depression 3 times in my 72 yrs., for years at a time, taking a variety of anti-depressants that simply had not made a difference during that 3rd episode. So my therapist recommended TMS, which I had not heard of previously, and I can truly say they saved my life.
Don't ever give up hope.