Thanks for all the comments. I feel a little better about this. Next week I have my annual physical, followed by my 6 month check up with the urologist. I'm certain that both of those visits will be mostly about treatment options etc. I'm going to see if I can get some anxiety meds to help me deal with this. I rarely ever cry, but when I do it's usually due to frustration. I've been on the verge of tears about this and since the spring it's been a significant source of stress. Being 60 just stinks.