Dear Denise, @denisestlouie

Your strength and resilience inspire me. You've faced unimaginable challenges, from the traumatic experience with Crohn's disease to the recent cancer diagnosis. It's understandable to feel overwhelmed and uncertain.

Firstly, please acknowledge that you're not alone. For the past 18 months, someone said to me that I have been living in my head. Perhaps that's true for many of us - we've been living in my head because we don't want to bother folks with our angsts. Our feelings, fears, and doubts are valid. It just takes immense courage to admit vulnerability, in general, and I'm happy you have a therapist to help, in particular.

You've already demonstrated remarkable determination and adaptability by transforming your life to manage Crohn's. Now, focus on harnessing that same energy for cancer treatment.

Remember:

1. You are more than your diagnosis.
2. Your worth and identity extend beyond this challenge.
3. You've survived difficult situations before; you can do it again.

Trust in:

1. God's plan and strength.
2. Your medical team's expertise.
3. Your inner resilience.

Don't blame yourself; cancer is often unpredictable. Instead, focus on:

1. Self-care and compassion. Eat for nutrients, not just to feel full. Avoid sugar and carbs.
2. Mind-body connection (therapy, prayer, music, walks in the park or yard, meditation, etc.).
3. Surrounding yourself with positive support. Find at least one person, you could call in the middle of the night or go with you on appointments.

Celebrate your strengths:

1. Your 'strong, independent woman' spirit.
2. Your ability to lift others despite your own fears.
3. Your proactive approach to health.

You are:

1. A warrior, fighting for your life.
2. A survivor, with a story to share.
3. A beacon of hope, inspiring others.

Keep moving forward, one day at a time. Allow yourself to feel emotions, but don't let fear define you. You are capable of overcoming this.

In addition:

1. Continue journaling to process emotions.
2. Foster open communication with loved ones.
3. Celebrate small victories.
5. Seek support groups or online communities like this Mayo Forum. Stay positive.

Keep shining... you've got this!