I'm sorry you are having such an awful time with the side effects of your medications! I know nothing about depression but I do react severely to the side effects of many medications that have been prescribed in the past to the point I quit taking them like you. What I did in place of the medications was research to find what foods might help with my situation. I did a Google search for "What foods help depression?" The search turned up many foods that help depression; more than I can list here. You might look up that search and see what foods you like that may help you. Also note what vitamins are in the foods that help you and possibly start taking those vitamins. I have personally discovered that plain yogurt and Gatorade help me a lot. I also take a lot of vitamins and iron.

Prayer also helps immensely! Just tell God your problems and ask for help. It will come. Have faith. I will say a prayer for you also.
God bless you!
PML