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Posted by anouar @anouar, Sep 7 12:55am

Hey..i got born with a dad who works far away and a mom with anger issues, she used to beat me n insult me for dumb reasons and i couldn't tell anybody cuz she was threating me. She was also controlling the way she forced me to cut my hair so short for 8 years, i got bullied for it by my classmates and that made me have a very low image of myself that none could ever change. My dad was wondering why my grades are getting worst while he doesn't know that my mom's who killed my motivations. Anyway i survived all this shitty treatement and comparing until i met someone...someone i thought she would change my life, she was beautiful, kind and i loved her even if she was distant. But at some point she changed her behavieur and started to treat me like a stranger until she admitted that she's cheating on me with a girl and insulted me using all the secrets i told her about and not gonna lie that made a scar deep inside me that would be hard to get healed, i wished her to be happy tho. Coming back to my parents, my parents compared me with the neighboor's daughter and yelled at me saying "why wouldn't u be like her? She doesn't even have a phone while u have things most people doesn't, don't yall have the same brain?". I mean...i know i'm not the son you always wanted but i'm trying so hard...you deserve better dad.

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anouar | @anouar | Sep 7 8:48pm
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@pml

Anouar,
I'm so sorry that you have such a bad situation to live with! That must be very hard for you. However, there is one who thinks you are a very good person and that is God. Just talk to God like he's your best friend, and he is! Tell him all of your troubles and concerns and ask for his help. God will be there for you. He made you and he can help you. You don't need to go to a church or any kind of religious organization to find God. He's right there with you whenever you pray to him. Don't worry with God's help things will get better. I've had many times in my life when things were really bad but when I prayed and asked for God's help, it always came and things got better. So, pray to God and have faith. It will work! I will say a prayer for you also.
God bless you,
PML

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Pml, thank you so much for ur advice i'll try to start praying, it must be a good psychological solution. God bless you too.

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pml | @pml | Sep 7 9:04pm
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@anouar

Pml, thank you so much for ur advice i'll try to start praying, it must be a good psychological solution. God bless you too.

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Anouar,
You are so welcome! I think that's wonderful that you are going to start praying to God! God is all you or I have ever needed! Things will get better for you.
I'll say a prayer for you too.
PML

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pml | @pml | Sep 8 9:21pm
In reply to @shelleyw "anouar, 👋 Shelley again, I wanted to remind you that using a warmline, or using MayoClinic,..." + (show)
@shelleyw

anouar, 👋 Shelley again, I wanted to remind you that using a warmline, or using MayoClinic, no one, in your family or country, will know about this, so no teasing or bullying.
Also, I have used both warm and hot lines for myself...you may need to try more than one, to find the right fit for you. Keep us updated, we all are here for needing help of some sort. I know that I can always use a dose of someone's successes. Enjoy the rest of your weekend. ShelleyW

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Hi Shelley,
What is a warmline? I've never heard of it.
PML

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shelleyW | @shelleyw | Sep 9 6:21pm
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Hi Shelley,
What is a warmline? I've never heard of it.
PML

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pml, it an emerging option for when you know you are not suicidal but you really need help, just talk, etc. vs. hotlines have been primarily used when you feel you are overwhelmed and on the brink of suicidal thoughts, panic etc.
ShelleyW

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pml | @pml | Sep 9 8:22pm
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@shelleyw

pml, it an emerging option for when you know you are not suicidal but you really need help, just talk, etc. vs. hotlines have been primarily used when you feel you are overwhelmed and on the brink of suicidal thoughts, panic etc.
ShelleyW

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Shelley,
Thank you for letting me know. That sounds like it could be very helpful for people. Where do people get that? Is it like calling the suicide line?
PML

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shelleyW | @shelleyw | Sep 9 9:40pm
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@pml

Shelley,
Thank you for letting me know. That sounds like it could be very helpful for people. Where do people get that? Is it like calling the suicide line?
PML

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pml,
Warmline.org and there are many similar sites that are for specific needs like: teens, new mothers, grieving persons, LBGTQ, and probably others. Thee are generally free, mostly peer to peer. In CA, @least some got started by the Tribals in their own area.

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ftrtestaccount | @ftrtestaccount | Sep 10 8:25am

Is there a trusted adult or someone in school who you could speak to about these things? They may not be able to solve the problems you are dealing with but someone who you can go to and offer emotional support?

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dfb | @dfb | Sep 11 10:05am

…i wrote this yesterday; if someone is giving me 💯 % of what they have to give it doesn’t matter if it’s not what I thought i needed…it’s everything they have to give. What more can i expect from anyone…i experienced what by any definition was horrifying childhood trauma…understanding that everyone in my life…especially my abusers gave me everything they had to give…no matter the form it took…i find this very freeing…over the past few months all of my childhood trauma has been released…sometimes with howling tears other times with tears of joy…i can see the point of you of the people who abused and raped me…it no longer shames or hurts me…instead i can see how the trauma that was passed to me was inherited by my abusers…it wasn’t their fault anymore than it was mine…i used to be bound to my abusers by the trauma we shared…they ran my life…today I am no longer afraid…i am free…

i was raped at 16 by a dark soul…he has plagued me my whole life…no more…i will no longer lead my life in fear directed by the trauma of the past…i’m am 61…i hope you find peace faster than i did…

Be well my friend !

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anouar | @anouar | Sep 11 5:15pm
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@ftrtestaccount

Is there a trusted adult or someone in school who you could speak to about these things? They may not be able to solve the problems you are dealing with but someone who you can go to and offer emotional support?

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Well most of people ik starts making fun of if i said just i feel sad...so no i don't think i hav

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anouar | @anouar | Sep 11 5:19pm
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@dfb

…i wrote this yesterday; if someone is giving me 💯 % of what they have to give it doesn’t matter if it’s not what I thought i needed…it’s everything they have to give. What more can i expect from anyone…i experienced what by any definition was horrifying childhood trauma…understanding that everyone in my life…especially my abusers gave me everything they had to give…no matter the form it took…i find this very freeing…over the past few months all of my childhood trauma has been released…sometimes with howling tears other times with tears of joy…i can see the point of you of the people who abused and raped me…it no longer shames or hurts me…instead i can see how the trauma that was passed to me was inherited by my abusers…it wasn’t their fault anymore than it was mine…i used to be bound to my abusers by the trauma we shared…they ran my life…today I am no longer afraid…i am free…

i was raped at 16 by a dark soul…he has plagued me my whole life…no more…i will no longer lead my life in fear directed by the trauma of the past…i’m am 61…i hope you find peace faster than i did…

Be well my friend !

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Thank you so much, it's hard being through what you said..i'm glad you faced the past.
Be well you too

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