…i wrote this yesterday; if someone is giving me 💯 % of what they have to give it doesn’t matter if it’s not what I thought i needed…it’s everything they have to give. What more can i expect from anyone…i experienced what by any definition was horrifying childhood trauma…understanding that everyone in my life…especially my abusers gave me everything they had to give…no matter the form it took…i find this very freeing…over the past few months all of my childhood trauma has been released…sometimes with howling tears other times with tears of joy…i can see the point of you of the people who abused and raped me…it no longer shames or hurts me…instead i can see how the trauma that was passed to me was inherited by my abusers…it wasn’t their fault anymore than it was mine…i used to be bound to my abusers by the trauma we shared…they ran my life…today I am no longer afraid…i am free…

i was raped at 16 by a dark soul…he has plagued me my whole life…no more…i will no longer lead my life in fear directed by the trauma of the past…i’m am 61…i hope you find peace faster than i did…

Be well my friend !