@rosemarya, thank you. I think and feel that everybody is on it's own remarkable journey. Everytime that something bad happened to me, personally I never lost a minute on "why this happens to me?" I would rather that it happens to me rather to my child or someone dear to me or younger or someone whom I don't even know but has enough problems, like war, other atrocities, you know. I am not a very strong person but this is my life and I am forced to make the best of it. It is easy to lay down and let self pity take over but then I would lose such precious moments which I can make my life worth fighting for. Meeting loved ones and really enjoying their company. Work as a volonteer and help those less fortunate.
I feel sometime that cancer has made me egocentered but when I work with those less fortunate I feel alive and appreciate my own life. I am able to appreciate my life because I have been able to see my child grew to become a man and a wonderful father to a beautiful girl. My husband still loves me, with hair, without hair, with breasts and without breasts, with my chemo brain and more changes. So please be happy for the life you have, because believe me, we are lucky❤️