@esikora Life is so funny, isn't it? I was feeling down this morning, so I searched for info and found this discussion. I just turned 64 on Aug 26 and just 9 days before that, my son, who was 38, died from the cancer that was diagnosed in Jan 2023. We (my whole family) fought it for 20 months and now it seems like our hope was foolish. I thought I was handling it well, knowing about the stages of grief, but the anger is apparently still raging. As I read the posts, I wondered if it would do me any good to hear about other people's problems because they are depressing. I felt some compassion, but also anger and some cynicism. I wanted to relate, but at the same time, I didn't want to relate. It's so weird. Part of me wanted to write something like you wrote, and I might have, had I not read yours. Then I was glad that @gingerw replied to you and was very relieved that you came back and apologized... not because you were wrong to have said it; you weren't. You expressed what you felt and also what I felt, so I didn't have to. That is part of what this forum is for, right? I was relieved because I would have been embarrassed and sorry if I had expressed what I felt. So your apology made me relate in a way that actually made me feel better. Thank you.