oh wow, thanks for the info. I do remember the Doctor who recommended the cisplatin therapy telling me hearing loss and possible need for IV antibiotics in the hospital for infections. He didn't say anything about feet because I surely would have told him I have Raynauds and asked if having Raynauds would make it more possible or vice versa.

When you say 2-3 weeks survival, are you talking like if we have months to live? Guess I am not getting this 'survival rate' thing as it seems like over half die before 5 year mark.

Saw pulmo yesterday for fluid on lungs followup. Gasping for breath just talking but oxygen was 99. He put me on Trelegy and agreed I was too weak to have a port put in. Sure, I smoked but NEVER needed any kind of inhaler before. Hope this goes away. Seems like my surgeon is a huge liar saying I would be back to normal and everything was fine. (If I don't look good, he doesn't look good, I guess...). Pulmonologist said I may never get better. like what?? I did all this for nothing. I'm too weak for chemo/port and totally disabled now. Day before lobectomy I had been workign 16 hr days doing hard labor non-stop. Would have rather lived 4 months eating/drinking/swimming than 3 months dying on a couch unable to breathe or even eat and sitting in clothes covered in body fluids and animal feces. and haven't even felt like having a box of wine or fifith of whiskey for a temporary escape. I don't trust any of them now. thanks for the info.