You’re in the most difficult phase for anxiety. I remember telling my surgeon that I felt like Bill Murray in Groundhog Day living the same day over and over with another test, more waiting (the worst), another appointment then repeating the cycle many times. Once all the data is in and you have a set plan you’ll feel better. The morning of my double mastectomy I felt so relaxed because I knew it was finally the beginning of healing. I had climbed to the top of the mountain and was finally going to head back down. Hang in there. It will get better. Prayers for you.