When I'm overwhelmed I write. I'm am also dyslexic so writing wasn't something that I did do until I got sick 2 years ago. I just had to get the voices out of my head. I'm currently working on a memoir. I handwrite it. It just seems more therapeutic when it comes through my hands and a pen. I started it because I wanted to write my story in a positive way so that I could tell myself how I became the person that I am. I do like myself and I want it to tell how my trials throughout my life have made me the person that I am today. I don't intend to make this a public memoir but I do read it to my therapist as I finish each section. That's also very therapeutic.
Past two days I have just been so sad about the reality of my situation. And that is coming off of being in a very positive place for the past 2 weeks. All that positivity felt like I was being in denial. I have conflicting narratives going on in my head. I have every intention to be back in that positive side. It Is some much better way to live than to being sad. Thank you for your comments. I think I joined this group so that I could have a safe place to say what I need to say and I really need the comments. Thank you thank you thank you