@kdo0827 - you can't help it. Don't beat yourself up. There are times I am so angry at my husband that I go in the bathroom, turn the water on and just shake my fists and cry. There are times that he seems so forlorn that I just hate myself for any harsh word I've spoken. Please remember to take care of you. Is there any way you could carve out some time to do something that would truly make you happy? Maybe a lunch with friends? A whole quiet afternoon to read a book? I don't know about you, but I really need some me-time to recharge. Hoping things get better for you!