Thank you so much for your wonderful reply. It is almost 10:00 P.M. so I am going around the house closing everything up and making sure nothing is left unlocked. Then I will tuck myself into bed with a book.
In answer to your question, yes, I have grandchildren, but I am not close to them. My youngest son has basically kicked me out of the family. His wife thinks I am judgmental and does not want me to visit them anymore. I guess he does not have the spine to tell her anything, but he was willing to tell me. I had to wait to bury my husband because of Covid. So it was over a year after his death before I could make arrangements. They all came for the funeral but they treated me coldly. My granddaughter would not even come over to me to say she was sorry about her Grandad's death. I was not allowed to attend her wedding. I was told I was not welcome. Maybe she is mad about that. I don't know and I don't know if she was ever told the trust about why I didn't attend. So I have arranged to have him removed as my trustee. I did my research and found a fiduciary trustee. I made an appointment to interview her and was pleased. I also had my attorney (former boss for whom I worked for 23 years) made an amendment to the trust that everything over which I had control went to my older son and his wife. It they want to play hardball I figured I would get some shots in myself. So basically I am really alone. I skype with older son every week. He lives in Asia which is why he is not the alternate trustee. His wife treats me with respect and calls me Mom. I am not good with people. I do have one or two friends, but that's it. I had more, but I have outlived them. I read a report from Cleveland Clinic that if people reach their 90's, they don't live too much longer. That is because their cells stop splitting. When that happens you die. But that's okay. I really do not want to be here without my husband.