@andwho Oh, good. I'm happy I responded with what I learned and it was helpful for you. I figured out the following for myself. If the thoughts pop up once in a while and stay mostly in the back of mind then that's good. When the thought is front and center and I can barely concentrate on anything else then that's when those thoughts affect my quality of life and in living each day as it comes. I learned that prior to a cancer surveillance appointment it's OK if my anxiety ramps up particularly if I'm going to have scan. That's normal. Once I find out that nothing is there - no evidence of disease - can I breathe a sigh of relief? Yes.

As my mind wanders to the worst possibility I gently escort it back to the present moment. If I have to do this over and over again then so be it. I keep doing it. This is what I do just before those cancer surveillance appointments.