Hi Jim,
Thank you for your words of encouragement and support. At the moment, I feel, like I am swimming in the ocean with big waves. I get a gulp of air and then fight the waves, and the pattern continues. The waves are memories mixed with the pain of reality and gulps of air are my will to live a good life and hope for the future and some good people I come across during my days. I will do therapy once I am out. I have a very good insight myself now, I see how people can get manipulated by narcissists. I know what I am and what I am not, my good sides and sides I try to improve. I am still in the same house; it is not that easy sometimes to just to leave. But I will. Thank you