This is me to a T. Omg. Now if I can continue to find the group each day.
I am in a state of major recurrent depression too. I was widowed 2 years ago after 54 years. I now have finally accepted that he is not coming back!
I can and do have things to do to entertain myself and keep busy. But. There is now NO purpose in my life. My PCP has been very caring about this issue and has suggested therapy with a psychiatrist and a psychologist
I tried both. Was put on a totally different antidepressant by psychiatrist, helped for a bit. Upped the dosage and just played around with that. Obviously hasn’t worked. And talking about it didn’t help for any length of time. I no longer go to these therapists.
I just need to learn to try to live in my new life.
It’s hills and valleys with me! Right now I am in a deep valley.
I won’t burden my children about this and also my friends. All the people that I would have been able to talk to are dead now.
Taking a trip somewhere would help me get out of this house and I 7have done that in the last 2 years. But I am now 80 years old and I’m starting to be afraid to go alone. But now that I say that…why should I be afraid? So what! At least I will be on my feet and amongst human beings!
AND NOW THAT I HAVE SAID THAT!! I am going to do just that and pack and get into an Uber to the airport and just take off. I feel lighter right now just insaying that. There is no judgement here. Thank you!