@thisismarilynb
Today is called “the present”. Enjoy this wonderful gift,

So sorry for the loss of your dear spouse.
I totally understand your attitude and would never criticize you for it.
You sound like an honest, practical person just doing the best you can.
I just hit 70 & have lived alone with a disability for many years. I envy those who have had a partner for many years, & I cannot imagine the pain of adjusting to life without them.
I feel the same about having to continue on with little "hope," but continue on we DO.
Good luck & God bless you.

Please do not give up hope. You sound very capable and have many gifts including being healthy, able to drive, independent. Those are presents. I understand you can be without hope but don’t give up having a meaningless life yet.

I’m pretty sure the comments already cover it. Instead of looking inward (at yourself) maybe you should reflect on what youDO have that many of us could only hope for. You have good health. Your mind is good. You can DRIVE!! There are places to go where you can give enormous gifts to others who have less. Ponder on that!

Aging and loss present many obstacles to hope. My heart goes out to you. Social interactions have been proven to provide much to a person's well-being. I am aware that many people in your age group are not as healthy or available to you.
Maybe it would be helpful to speak with a counselor who may have alternative methods to access more (meaningful) social interaction which could provide something to look forward to(?)

"[L]ost hope of ever having a meaningful life" yet here you are living a "normal life." As an 80 y.o., with life throwing new challenges (must have a nap in p.m.) and weakening sight though still can walk up with 20lbs of groceries often many floors, carrying them from bus stop to 2nd floor, even though there is elevator I've never used.

But what kind of "meaningful" life it would be for me if it did not accommodate by declining abilities and changing priorities, unless I believed that meaningfulness is a constantly moving target. This is how I look at my each day or month. I don't think 'meaning" would disappear from my life even if there is no one left, which pretty much is my situation.

Part of the reason we share ourselves here is to learn from Each Other; that for me is meaningful, in the sense that I am not feel "superfluous" as Dalai Lama said in New York Times some years ago.

For me feeling meaning or purpose is when I can still feel I can contribute to people and nature on this earth no matter how ephemeral change might seem.

I do hope you have meaning -- or find one -- where you feel sense of having done what mattered , even when it looks like a drop in the ocean, As It Always Has.