I have to ask. Is your husband an Aries? No telling them what to do, how to do it...never has been. I'm a Sag and just want everyone to have fun and get along which worked for us for a long time. Now that the tables are turned and m my husband has ALZ, no longer my rock, the dynamics have turned. I don't want to be in charge, or do the "man jobs" or take care of money or make major decisions. But guess what, I have to. I'm sorry you don't have better memories to lean on, that makes your position all that much harder. All you can do is look for a win for the day regardless of what that means to you. Seeing hummingbirds feed at my flowers is a win for me. I just had 4 friends drive up to have lunch with me and my cup is filled for a long time. Reach out and gather in psychic income as my mother called it. Find ways to fill your cup to keep you going. The clock is ticking for all of us. Make the most of it the best way you can. You matter.