thanks so much to all of you, I know I'm not the only one but sure does help when you can read of others. I'm stage 4 prostate. I remind myself it's been 17 months and I'm still going forward. It just wears you down, my biggest side effect from meds is fatigue. I get it, it's better then the pain I had before starting treatment but doesn't mean that all is okay now. And yes, waiting for lab results each month gets your attention. I understand we need to fight through this every day and it's surely not an easy thing to do. I wish the best to all on this journey.