Hello @samcal9977zz,

You certainly are dealing with a lot of losses, and I can understand that you are feeling the need to share with others. While sharing on a forum like this is helpful, perhaps some professional counseling would be best for you. A trained counselor might help you to put these losses in perspective. Given all that you have experienced some medication might also be in order help you now.

Have you consulted with a trained therapist or seen a psychiatrist for some mental health medications?