I totally feel your pain. I lost my drivers licence, the big house I rented, my dog had to be put down (hip dispasia) my lover of 6 years saw me have a seizure and ditched me a few months after that. I have a degree in English and I have a problem with word retrieval. I have a bit of a hard time with spelling but I insist that I look it up in the Oxford dictionary, sometimes it sticks. For me, it's "use it or lose it". I was homeless and had to live with my cousin. Everyday he said to me, "if I were you I would kill myself, when are you going to get the fk out". I had no where to go and I live in poverty with my credit card. I am sick of my own story. Sometimes I have anger management issues but learn quickly that I am worse off after. It is truly the anger and having gone to university that propels me to keep going. I don't know how old you are but as everyone learns, getting old sucks!! In 3 days I think I will be 57. I have lived longer than my father and sister did. I think of the "olden days" when people died so young and of starvation and disease. Now the young people are dying going to fight other people's wars. I would like to play a game of Scrabble or backgammon to see where my deficits are. All my friends have moved and the couple I have left won't even drive me to the grocery store. Everything is quid pro quo and I have nothing to give. A while back, I phoned a church to see if they had meals to give out or provide shelter. The girl that answered was a btch! I had to ask her for a number 3 times she gave me because she talked too fast and I could not write it down that fast. She screamed at me, "I told you 5 times already"!! I hung up . I could not believe that someone who answers a church phone could be so awful. I thought later that I should have asked her if I could speak to a manager or supervisor. If she said no, I could have said, " Is Jesus there"? My friend and I found this very funny. So something shitty turned in to something that still makes me laugh. You have to be your own comedian. Keep on truckin my friend... we are not dead yet .