I am glad that there are so many survivors out there. I wanted to be a survivor and get to ring the bell and such. But, it didn’t work out that way for me. Now I just consider myself as a loser because I’m not going to survive after trying so hard. This is my second round of breast cancer after a ten year break. They tried everything. I finished my treatment a few weeks back and I am not going to survive, I’m going to die. I don’t know how long I have. I have breast cancer tumors in my left armpit, my lymph nodes, my bones, my lungs and my liver is filled completely with tumors. I truly am so very happy for those of you that are survivors. I don’t talk to anyone that I don’t know about my cancer because I don’t want to scare them with my story and ruin their joy. I would rather they keep their joy. So I’m not a survivor and I feel like I am a loser or whatever. God bless all of you beautiful survivors. Maria