You're right. I went to Catholic school and the nuns slapped me a lot for asking too many questions. This led me to have a negative view of religion. A cousin of mine told me he liked to go and sit in a cathedral and I was surprised because our backgrounds were similar. He said "sometimes it's nice to just sit inside a beautiful building and think about things" and I understood. For me, that place is outside. I'm fortunate to live near a large forest with a walking path that leads to a lake and I often go there really early in the morning when there's no one else around and find it very peaceful. It's also nice to see all the animals: deer, foxes, birds, squirrels, rabbits, etc. They all have a different "agenda" than me (for many that agenda is simply "don't get eaten by something else today") but as I've gotten older I've learned there are far more questions than answers.