Stop having any feelings or biases about any part of this EC journey... what we're all praying for is to be free of EC... to reach NED status... and stay there. So we do what is required to achieve this, to give us our best odds. I had no clue what I needed... no clue if I would live and have great results. And even today I'm still not sure, although I'm over 4 years post-op. But the pieces of this puzzle fit together nicely sometimes... if you let them. My J tube went in the week after I was diagnosed... and I kept it for 8 months... 4 after the esophagectomy. But the chemo, radiation, surgery, immunotherapy... all done in order... got me to where I am today. But we're all forced to sit back and see how our bodies respond to all the treatments and procedures and surgeries they do to us. And this includes our many doctors... they have no clue either... they sit back and watch too... then decide what's next for each of us. Be well.

Gary