So I have to ask: How much pain are you in right now? Your original post made it sound like you had had Cyberknife and it failed and now you are at the ‘salvage’ stage of treatment, correct?
Every disease - every cancer, in fact, is different in different people. I watched my father - a bull of a man who could cut heavy gauge sheetmetal - with snips I could barely lift - like we cut paper with a scissor, die agonizingly of mesothelioma. This disease is still a death sentence for most who get it. But PROSTATE CANCER IS NOT.
I watched a patient ( I am a retired dentist) slowly kill himself by refusing all treatment for his diabetes - DIABETES!!!! Half the f’n world has it and this guy with a wife and kids in his 50’s saw no hope for him…he told me he would rather die than ‘go thru all that’….ALL WHAT??? Pills, injections that could prolong his life indefinitely??? I never understood it and he slowly died with amputations, kidney failure and all the rest.
But it was his choice and I hope he didn’t regret it when it was too late. As for myself, I do not see myself as a warrior or someone ‘battling’ this disease. I am a man with a background in biology and science and am truly grateful that treatment has progressed to where it is today. Five or ten years from now there will be RNA vaccines or some other type of curative treatment for PCa. Why don’t you stick around awhile and get whatever care you can for now. Your CURE might be right around the corner.