scottbeammeup thank you so very much for initiating this conversation. That took an immense amount of courage. I than you again. I had a 10 cancer and used proton beam and Lupron. I too am dead in the water - completely. With my 10 the radiation used was more than had been anticipated and Lupron is Lupron. I was never adequately informed of the inevitable consequences. However, I'm still here. And that is the real point, isn't it. I had never considered your gay issues - thanks for that input. It's strong character such as yours that can help so many others. Use your abilities, help your fellow man.