@dorenemonchil, I can imagine your heart is broken. These days immediate after the loss are so busy. Please know that my thoughts are with you. I hope you have family and friends surrounding you.

When things quiet down and should you wish to connect with people who understand loss after a serious illness, you may wish to join the Loss & Grief support group here: https://connect.mayoclinic.org/group/loss-grief/

Even if your husband didn't use hospice services, many hospice facilities offer bereavement programs. It might help to be in person with others.

Your husband was more than his cancer. What would you like us to know about him to hold his memory?