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Hi Ray,
I have been battling this for 12 years and only had a name put to it in the last few months when my blood pressure started running amuck. It explains a lot, not that I am ready to fully accept it, yet. Eventually I will have no choice but to accept it.
Seems we are of similar minds.
As yet I have not accepted any help or favours from anyone and don't expect to anytime soon. I get a little brassed off from the continual offers, but have to be mindful they are well meant. I didn't realise I could do the things I have done until I started designing scientific apparatus 30 years ago. It took me by surprise, I could do what everyone around me had the training and paperwork to do, yet I had none. Seems I have seat of the pants nous. In those days I was the only one who could run their CNC machines, something I had to teach myself. It is now my hobby as I can get a machine to do what the hands don't always want to do.
I came alive so to speak and never looked back. I seldom give up on a challenge which has been the bain of my life. I take on the seemingly impossible to prove I can do it, to myself.
Finding no way around under or over the ANS is stumping me. possibly the only thing I can control is the rate at which it is esculating. A battle I'm doomed to lose and can't accept failure. It is tempered with the fact we all die in time anyway.
Cheers
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Good morning, cheyne
My own blood pressure has been something of a teeter-totter these past few years, despite the variety of hypertension medication my primary has suggested I try. So far, however, even though my numbers go up and down, I’ve had no ill effects.
Yesterday, I said something that made light of my worsening handwriting and my PN, how no one with whom I shared the stage ever gave two figs for my poor penmanship. That may have been true, but I never meant to imply that my neuropathy wasn’t a problem for me professionally. It was my neuropathy, not my getting older, that made me decide to give up acting. In my last play, I realized I was paying far more attention to not falling down than I was to my lines. Finally, I said to myself, ‘This is nutsy!’ and gave up performing, thinking at first it would only be short-term, until I got my balance ‘fixed.’ Learning – and then accepting – that my PN was incurable was a huge uh-oh—the hugest.
I’d best send and get cleaned up for today’s therapy sessions. I’ve got both kinds today: physical therapy and occupational therapy, one right after the other.
Have a grand Thursday.
Cheers!
Ray