Hello @zipsara1941 and welcome to Mayo Connect. I am so sorry to learn that you lost your husband. Feeling lost and lonely is a common feeling of widows.

As this is your first post, I would like to invite you to share in the Loss/Grief support group. Here are some links to some of those groups:
--Loss and Grief, how are you doing?
https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/loss-and-grief-how-are-you-doing/
--Loss of wife
https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/loss-of-wife/
These discussion groups are great places to share about your husband and your feelings now that he has passed.