I’m in agreement that you need a doctor to answer your questions, I think you will get some good advice here as to what to do and how to get help because you’re not alone with this, it’s always scary to see blood when going to the bathroom and I speak from experience, also it’s normal to think the worst when you have symptoms but there’s many reasons to see blood and it’s not always bad, you may have hemorrhoids or perhaps a fissure and they are very treatable, but get the advice you need to get started in the right direction, I hope all is well with you, good luck