Yes I know how you feel. Alone during the day. I grew up in an abusive home. My ex was abusive verbally and was an Alcoholic, his family blamed me for his alcoholism. Actually looked many things up on the internet he used to drink Nyquil by the bottle (I'm 74 now) this was back in the 1970's. Nyquil back then was 50% alcohol. He was 5'10 and weighed about 130 lbs, weight was about 20 lbs less than me, I didn't realize Nyquil had so much alcohol in it. Plus he drank between 3-5 6 packs of beer every night. I never drank because my Mom lectured us about alcohol because her father was an alcoholic. He was an orphan at age 13 (born in 1885 MN) and raised himself on the Railroad working with adult men (learned to drink around adult men) Plus do you know how many Railroad accidents there were in the late 1880's & early 1990's, I had hundreds' of postcards from his collection (should have never given to my abusive father later in my life) that showed head on collisions of the trains). I have an old newspaper that mentions my grandfather Albert Miller having his back being injured in one of the train accidents. There were not a lot of drugs back then and I'm sure that men turned to drinking to dull the pain. Thus my mother lectured us to no end about drinking. I have no family left, Mother dead, father also, abusive sister also. I can't get out much because I have many health issues, Neuropathy, back problems, depression, from car accident as passenger, t-boned, fractured pelvis, sacro-iliac, 16 major surgeries, too many health issues to mention, plus neighbors giving me a bad time for feeding the crows which I love, they are the only things that bring me joy. But nasty neighbor can make noise at 5:30 AM in morning or 10-11 pm at nightl with cars and everything else, shoot off fireworks, rev his motocycle and car engines. GRRRRR