well i don't know other than God... believe me there's been a few times i've been saying what next but you know in the hospital one of the people asked me how i was maintaining such a good attitude and i was just like "well at least i'm not where Job was, i still have my family" But i assure you, i'm not feeling my best...and without my kids i'd be really hurting...they are doing almost all my driving back and forth to appts etc..and lots of other things...