It is hard. No one but the people I "meet" here understand how hard this is, emotionally. I am 1.5 yrs past surgery, 1 yr since last treatment, 1 yr on anastrozole. Before bc, I was a stable, happy-go-lucky, non-worrier, optimistic, detailed and organized person. Now I am sensitive to everything, major worrier, emotions up and down depending on the day, can't focus or organize anything, forget everything, and pessimistic 50% of the time. I hate it all!! I wonder if the anastrozole causes any of this? Or is it all the bc experience and aftermath and uncertainty of my future? Whatever it is, it is all new to me and difficult to accept my new "personality". My husband, kids, friends, family ... all seem to have put it behind them, and don't even ask how I am anymore, just get a strange look on their face when I do something that "isn't like me" (overreact, forget something, etc). It is a very difficult and completely overwhelming experience.

I appreciate everyone here and the things that are shared. We can all help each other realize and understand that we are not alone, and we are not "crazy" for these new and foreign feelings. Stay strong, and take good care.