Hello, Trish, The fear is there and I’m thinking perhaps the panic comes and goes? That’s how it works for me. And yes, once you see the path report and/or talk with the doctor you cannot « unhear » the news again. That’s good way of characterizing it all.

It’s difficult to trust a medical provider that you don’t know with touching your body much less doing a procedure. Do you ever tell the provider or perhaps the nurse who is getting you ready that you feel this way? I wish that more medical providers understood what trauma-informed care means.

You wrote that you know what to do for yourself. Does this include going for a walk? I know for myself that if I’m feeling really anxious and fearful I need to move. When I move and it could be walking up and down stairs in my house or going outside for a walk that the anxiety will lessen.

What time is your appointment tomorrow? I’d like to send healing energy to you and for you to feel that I and the other women here on this site are there for you.