I'm responding here Rom828, and also to the discussion in general. When I was 21 (now 70) I almost died from swine flu and was hospitalized for many months. I had a classic near death experience, without any idea what that was. I was never able to put the experience behind me. I actually ended up living a much more authentic, adventurous, and fulfilling life than I would have. With breast cancer two years ago I'm just using my hard won skills of living WITH experience rather than moving on. I really can relate, though, to what you & others have been saying about friends & family figuring it should be over. So many things are never over--including beautiful experiences. Your comment about helping others also seems significant. I once heard a Zen teacher say--if you don't know what to do, do something for someone else. Anyway I feel like your reaction is quite normal--and it is YOURS. Therapy can always help if you feel too negatively obsessed, but I'm sending you, tullynut, and everyone a vote of confidence.