@change25, remember that you recognised that your mental state is deteriorating. You are proud that you can do that now and you should be. That's a big step. You also mentioned earlier that taking part in online forums and social media wasn't good for you and caused you to focus on things that weren't helpful.

You're recognising the right things and making good progress. Small steps count. We're here to support you, but it sounds like spending time on the computer and in the forum is not helpful. Keep yourself safe today. Tell your parents how you are feeling. I encourage you to get outside and walk. Observe 5 things you see, hear, smell and can touch.